give up.

Geram! erasing u fr my mind is the best thing that i should doo.. Every single thing that i do, reminds me of u. Tak kisah lah, dimana mana aku berada pun, aku mesti ingat dia. nak nak everytime i see u online, my hand was like, 'i want to click at ur name, and chat!' but i dont have the strength and guts to do it. u didn't contact me, sedangkan u active dekat facebook. u're my weaknesses :( i want to talk with u, like before. bt, im afraid if u hate me and mmg tak nak pun cakap and contact aku. so i think, better if im broke my heart now then being hated by u later. i know. that it will never happen. im sure it will not. im hating fake hope. hate myself from loving u. it kills me inside :( that akward feeling come closer whenever i tried to throw it away. :( when someone ask me,'don't u feel sad or dissapointed when she(not friend/strangers) likes him?' i will say, 'it doesnt bother me anymore. bcause im always in that situation. everytime i like someone, another girl was also like him and what can i do. i will give it to her and back off. bcause i know what will happen next and i don't want to get hurt for miliions time. and im happier if they happy.' urgh. actually that's a lie. im not that types of person. i will mke sure tha she(not friend/strangers) will nver dapat him smpai bila bila. bcause he is mine! argh!! aku dah gila! yes, gilakan dia..! shit u! kau buat aku syg kau sgt!



to ; him! u freaking me out! i hate u even more! why did u treat me like that huh? hell u! if u dont want me, or not love me, just say it! u doesnt have to senyap macam ape je! tak contact aku langsung! u are totally man bitchess! and u dont have to say that words to me! u hurt me even more! for many times and surely, its hard for me to forgive and forget. bcause like seriously, it wont happen. u just step on my dignity. jumpa aku, bila ada depan mata, cakap cintakan aku! sayang aku! HAHA, so great haa? you're not a man, but a 'jantan'. ohh shitt. never and never lerhh! and after i heard new things from tut tut tut, erghh getting hate u. sorry, ohh. or maybe i dont have to say 'sorry' words bcause u dont deserve that. but for now, its hard to forgive and forget for what u had done to me. even i knoe that u mesti tak tau menahu langsung bout my feelings now! a 'sorry' words cant mend everything. i always act like theres nothing happen. bcause i need to hide my embarassment towards my frends. sebab diorang tak tau yg aku ni ade masalah dgn kau sebenarnya! and yeah. thanks a lot to u, for doing all this stupid things. FOR YOUR INFORMATION, im not crazy after u. like seriously, u're not hot nor hnsome. seperti mana yg selama ni u perasan sgt sampai nak post dkt fb yg u tu hensem sgt! yeah, i see that before, but now its missing. u know why? because i see hot and hnsome inside people not by their appearances. theres no use if u hnsome, but inside, u are totally like zero! and also have brain, but stupid bcause dont used it wisely. thanks for everything, i really appreciate it.

GIVE UP! oh, btw i just using 'give up' words in relationship, but in life, i wouldn't.